I FEEL SICK. Cos i read the papers on a daily basis. Palestinians and Israelis killing each other, for decades. Fools. Malaysians killing each other. Idiots. Malaysians chewing out the Singaporeans, in a love-hate tango which is gonna go on forever. Americans killing Afghans. Americans taking a swing at their enemy of choice every decade or so. One high-ranking Malaysian Military Official did tell me a theory why the Americans do it. Perhaps someday I'll let it out. If it's not a national secret... huh.

Malaysians fighting over the Spratlys. Is that tug-of-war still going on, where half of South Asia is attempting to gain control of the place? Seems a media blackout here.

Hey it's time we put a fucking end to war. Watching war movies make me sick. WHY WHY WHY???? Damn isn't that what the political process is for, a civilised avenue to amicably settle conflicts without loss of limb and life? Why the fuck is it not working? Is it really necessary to resort to such acts of violence, sometimes on a massive scale as to wipe out entire races??? Why the genocide, why the killings, why the need for an armed force??? Didn't the frigging Cold War end a long time ago??? Does the frigging US always have to identify an ENEMY so as to justify their defence budgets and their weapons industry?

It starts with one. That's YOU and ME. It's not up to the LEADERS to determine peace. It's in me. It's in You. Look around. I see people, with feelings and emotions, with hopes of love and peace. If we were all to share these same qualities to all and sunder, I'd believe we'd start the creation of a beautiful society. I do my part. No doubt it's hard. Let's share our smiles. Let's offer our hearts. Let's dispose of our prejudices, our fears and insecurities, our deeply-ingrained biased Malaysian mindset. Oh call me a stupid dreamer, a hopeless romantic, an idealist. This is possible. Remember that movie "Pay It Forward"? It is that easy, starting from the power of one.

SO what are you gonna do? What am I gonna do, is what i should ponder upon.

On a lighter note... the fact that Paula Malai's getting married is breaking some of us male's hearts. Sob sob.