have a headache of enormous magnitude. no not that kind of headache lah (pf, can almost imagine u sniggering!). though i wouldn't mind some of that therapy. this one all financially-induced. what else.

almost every night i dream of budget resorts, white beaches, and translucent green seas, with corals and beautiful fish in abundance. is that my destiny as i've always pictured it? i think so. i've always imagined myself living by the beach, running a resort. and if i was hungry, i'd just go spear a fish. and barbeque it on the beach. yummy. images of 'Castaway' but not so teruk lah. perhaps it's time to make my dreams come true. we can't run from our true destiny. dreams are actually easy to achieve, once we cut through the bullshit we tell ourselves. one wise man once penned, the only barrier is ourselves.

had some curry chicken for lunch. was nice together with the teh tarik. most mamak / indian stalls and warungs do not know the concept of 'kurang manis'. time for me to educate them. send it back if it's too sweet! just discovered i've got inherited risks of diabetes (patrilineal) and blood pressure problems (matrilineal), one of which i already have symptoms. (jeez my english sucks). so do i just give up, drink some more, eat heartily, be merry to an early end? i don't think so. will go jogging later.

later alligators.