one concept that came up in the book i'm reading, Black House, is that of 'slippage'. in the context of that novel, it means something like when everything is just slowly, unnoticeably, declining, slipping ever-so-slowly downhill, til one day everything just crashes in.

i feel that in my existence for the past few days. you can say that shit comes along all at once. slippage. perhaps (and most surely) a lot of it is due to my own doing. everything seems so non-linear, like a higher being just imposed the chaos theory on me.

focus. that's what i need. just fumbling my way through the minutes, hours, days, just won't kick it. it's about effective action. and i'm not doing it. ideas floating about in my head. but whats the use of abstract ideas without substantiation? (damn i love that word, catch it in Kid's Story in The Animatrix.)

main use of PC these days: downloads. getting a kick getting bhangra and hindi songs. panjabi mc's, kuch kuch hota hai, dancehall, ragga. and just heard a song on Red FM called 'Taste my Ice Cream' and five minutes later i got it. this, my friends, is the speed of technology.

and it is that very speed of doing things in this high-tech world and all its expectations and requirements, that makes us wonder, what it's all about. i used to have the idea that i had no need to run the rat race. a simple life, i thought. but Life (the Rat Race variety) just sucked me in. still bloody torturing and tormenting me. it's vicious, every day, having to fight the battle. so tired i am right now. so tired.

and maybe i'm tired and pessimistic because of the boozing last nite! hahahah blame it on the blood sugar levels. woo hoo that was fun. everyone - we recommend Indiana Cafe in Klang. it's open and airy, with efficient and friendly employees (very much so), and good food and cold drinks. half-pissed, i discovered i could speak Spanish... el toro loco!!! heh heh.

okay lah guys and gals i must take my leave. off to the friendly neighbourhood coffeeshop i go.

love ya all