hey there my dear readers... (are there any out there? har har)

have you had any of those days when you feel crushed in spirit, downtrodden, and just can't stand up? i'm in one of those phases now. *sigh* you know, i have no problem getting screwed by customers, employers, friends and all that, but this one time is just too much to bear....

i was made to feel like a miserable little nothing. and those of you out there who think i should take it responsibly and move on, i just can't. it's much more fundamental than that, going in deeper and making me actually question who and what i am, what i can and cannot do, who i can be and cannot.

it's not good to step on and take lightly someone's hopes, dreams, ambitions. it's not right to belittle someone's achievements no matter how insignificant they may seem.

you can say i was always on the edge of this thing we call 'our life' and this might push me over so hard i might not want to rejoin the race.

and so, anon, my friends, i leave you with a thought:

at the end of it all, nothing matters.