i think i'm too existential for my own good.

am i getting too old to be all hippy and shit?

should i be watching movies til dawn, something i've been doing since, like, 9?

is there something important that i should be getting into?

where are those friggin' aliens and when are they gonna manifest for real?

over n out.

hey there my dear readers... (are there any out there? har har)

have you had any of those days when you feel crushed in spirit, downtrodden, and just can't stand up? i'm in one of those phases now. *sigh* you know, i have no problem getting screwed by customers, employers, friends and all that, but this one time is just too much to bear....

i was made to feel like a miserable little nothing. and those of you out there who think i should take it responsibly and move on, i just can't. it's much more fundamental than that, going in deeper and making me actually question who and what i am, what i can and cannot do, who i can be and cannot.

it's not good to step on and take lightly someone's hopes, dreams, ambitions. it's not right to belittle someone's achievements no matter how insignificant they may seem.

you can say i was always on the edge of this thing we call 'our life' and this might push me over so hard i might not want to rejoin the race.

and so, anon, my friends, i leave you with a thought:

at the end of it all, nothing matters.

hello hello.. so, city day hols came and went. wish i had more sleep. had so much planned to do, cherrylove and i. in the end, it was just goreng pisang, monty python re-runs, and some other quirky movies we got in the evening.

and so - the song for the day is 'Every Sperm is Sacred' from the Python's 'The Meaning of Life'. it is purely friggin' hilarious, much better if seen in the context of the movie lah. how spillin' yer seed is a sin... wooo hooo... just the sort of song and dance number to take our minds off our everyday troubles.

where's next eh... mmm.. supposed to have been langkawi next week but... financial constraints shelved that plan. maybe a day trip to port dickson, eh. march, is a different story lah... it's Bangkok here we come!!! amazing thing is we still dont have accommodation. heheh my faith in The Divine One to provide a room is strong....

and when is bob marley's birthday eh? the US is telling visitors to Ethopia not to carry weed over. like, it isn't the universal plant? kee kee kee hicccc bubbly bubblyyy burpppp

over n out...