it's been such a rough week. i treasure my sleep time cos that's the only time when i stop thinking and worrying and sprouting new grey hair. i can actually feel em coming out during the day, har har! though in times past i would have imbibed and maybe even rolled up a few (woo hoo the bad ole days...), i believe now keeping a clear head is of paramount importance. only thing about a clear head is... it aches so much... adoi....

so i was at Mines Shopping Centre, having had to go there to exchange a pair of pants which were too small (obviously my significant other missed noticing my ample girth ; ) ) and while waiting for my chicken to arrive at Nando's (fast food? blaaahhhh!!!!), i was staring at the water there, which leads out to the lake / mining pond outside. the catfish and the carp, it all looked so serene and for one moment i did wish i could jump in there and sink into oblivion. out of sight and out of mind, away from the noise around me. would it be painful to die, i wondered, and where would my consciousness take me? ever since watching Powder (the movie) i've wondered where my life essence will take me - or will i just dissipate and be part of all living creatures and go back to Mother Nature's sweet welcoming bosom.

aiyah! got work to do lar. gonna go now to pick some food and read the depressing news for the day. see ya all! have fun today ok.