0930 hrs. am in my office. airconditioning not on yet. only comes on at 10am or so. guess that's the time the building management goes to work.
stuffed my face with fried mee and a piece of chicken. lovely way to start the day. i've actually got a complete day of work. which is amazing since for the past year or so, my cumulative work-week might total about 3 or 4 full days. no fault of mine though... yeah yeah blame the friggin' economy eh. what a delightful scapegoat.

purchased a total of 3 bottles of wine yesterday. 1 for me family get-together later tonight, 1 for my sis, for her birthday, and the third one for meself-lah, who else eh! *hic* can't wait to pop it open and guzzle it. i haven't got down to sophisticated wine-drinking style - you know, swirl in mouth and spit it out (what a waste of good booze). i usually drink it like a soft drink, gulp gulp gulp. mabuk quickly laaahh!!! hheee heee

enjoy your day ok... til we meet again sometime after the xmas holiday...

dear justine,

nearest beach isn't that far away, about one hour's drive. day-trip, also can!

didn't go to the beach today, just a lake-side. or can we call those bodies of water in malaysia 'lakes'? they're all brownish with not much scenery - usually a pay-to-fish sorta place, isn't it.

damn i'm so sleepy this afternoon... gonna dream my sunday away... zzz...

e.

nope, haven't found my happy pill yet, but i have a distinct feeling it's inside each one of us, and it's as easy as accessing our inner happiness. right?

sometimes i achieve that by bloody well ignoring all the crap that's going on. that works for only a short period, then we've got to get back to reality. harsh, as they say. but for a few moments, getting away to a beach, watching the tide rise, the sun set, and the night creeping slowly upon us... how lovely it is to be lost in the moment...

weekend's here! yippee!

here i am, on a tuesday of my life, reading some teenagers' blogs. and actually interested in others' lives. like i don't have enough living creatures around me to care for. hmmpphh. supposed to be at a Hash House Harriers bash this evening. not making it cos i couldn't cough up the joining fee. hmmpphh. and so i sit in my little office.

my little office. my pal's wife doing her job as dutifully and efficiently as always. i'm at my place, doing jack-shit. been on the internet much of the day, except for the time from 1pm - 4pm, where i had some dessert (groundnut paste dessert, not sure what it's really called in English). drove around a bit and escaped into a Twilight Zone of my consciousness. cheered up a little by 5pm, and so we have pisang goreng (banana fritters, would it be???) lovely, and only if i had some teh tarik (pulled tea??!!??) with it...

i must delve into my unconscious tonight. must see what's bugging me and keeping me down. nothing's going the way it's supposed to. this is in terms of my work ethics at the moment. yucks, big time! shame on me.

ah well. now where shall we go this evening eh....

Raya was pretty dull. Just one place. Menu there was same as every year - Rendang Chicken, Nasi Himpit, Fried Meehoon, cookies. Host was peeved cos her cookies were spoiled this time around. poor gal.

my days are filled with such mundane choices. what to eat for this meal and that. where to do that. which movie to watch? when? how? why?

productivity is at its lowest - i sleep at preposterous hours and wake up at worse times. it should be alright if i was a college student, but i'm not. left that life a long time ago.... it was a different lifetime i think, an alternate dimension i existed in oh-so-many years ago. perhaps if i'm in the mood i shall reminisce on those times. you people out there: when someone tells you to enjoy studying life cos it's the best time, believe em. someone once said going to work kills a person from within - all that energy, youthful idealism, joy and spontaneity. true, true, all of it.

think i need a Happy Pill. anyone got one? a spell from Harry Potter might do the trick... i actually enjoyed the movie HP & The Philosopher's Stone, quite magical, mystical, and absolute escapism, wouldn't you say? don't know about the second movie, it feels like the same old thing with some changes to the plot. It caught Sequel-itis. Symptoms - yawns, boring storylines, tired cliches. we've all seen it before happen so many times.

okay lah time to get back to sorting out my mess here. take care y'all.

it's RAYA time!

hmm... let me see... i've got at least ONE place to go for makan-makan... okay what. not going to be like that one year where i gained 5 kilos in 2 days! that's a real proper ballooning. nothing like rendang and nasi impit. yummy.

a spot of clubbing for the weekend perhaps... yippee!

happy holidays, everyone!

love n peace

i'm back. as always, the phone bill wasn't paid for in time. then when it was, our Telekom department took its own sweet time getting this line re-connected. jeez. i could go on and on and on about all our 'jabatan', privatised or not. at least the chap at the Inland Revenue was pretty helpful - but then i hear they're quite profitable, and since getting me to pay em taxes is high on the government's agenda... TOO BAD! i didn't make enough dosh last year and the year before that. har.

MOVIE OF THE WEEK: 'SPIRITED AWAY'
Wow, this is one entertaining movie, and it must be the first time i've seen a Japanese anime in the cinema, which made it all so much better (as compared to the 25-inch puny TV which we have). nice one, this - simple storyline of a girl and her parents getting caught up in a mystical, other-dimension, where the gods come out to play. it's not all hard work for em, as you will see...

man, the visitor count to this site has topped 1,000! yippee! but i still think it's the same 7 or 8 chappies who drop by every day - sorry dudes, haven't been updating consistently due to 'circumstances'. anyways my blog is pretty lame compared to some i've seen out there. wait til i get the hang of HTML and linking and all that, i'll let you know. start with the hornyhome blog and wander around the links present there, it gets interesting. too bad nohopestalker decided to stop blogging (for the moment? forever?). aiyah come back on, what am i gonna read now?

i found out i'm not the only one who has read in the shower. i know i've done it when i was MUCH MUCH younger, but now i wonder why... firstly, the reading materials get wet. secondly, there are MUCH better things to do in the bathroom, with or without a partner... heh heh heh. like getting cleaned up and reaching those hard-to-clean areas around the toe-nails. that sorta thing, you know.

damn think i'm not going jogging again this evening. should be cold and wet outside but i don't know, haven't been out of this place since 12pm. cold in here, very. fingers were actually turning blue! until i ate some lovely hot cereal... mmm... never tasted so delicious and warm... agenda for the evening would be to exchange a VCD then. these idiot pirates - one title on the cover but content totally different. shits.

have a good evening, everyone.
love n peace

aiyoh! someone said to eat the kitty??!!! jeez that is so gross. still thinking about it / her a lot - those adoring eyes, and evident affection. sob sob. think i saw a pregnant cat yesterday - let's wish the kitties have better luck this time and don't end up in the drain like Luciano. and end up in my arms again... sniff sniff....

went to the beach yesterday. managed only about half-hour in the sun before the rain-clouds came zooming in and ended my fairy-tale afternoon. this weather is getting really irritating. the other day, my house was leaking really terribly, like the latter parts of Dark Water (seen it? it's pretty good apart from the lame ending). water was pouring in through the roof, man, and dripping down the walls. just like the movie. brrr.

recommended reading - Marina Mahathir's 'In Liberal Doses'. been reading it over and over the past couple of years - the context may be dated but it makes good and funny reading still. brain fodder, i would say. again and again, she stands for people to actually use their brains and make a decision instead of being mere followers. digest and be enlightened.

afraid to exit the office now, lest it be pouring out there. not much to do here. done my bit for the day, which is close to nothing... tried to get all the bits of paper filed up, and have failed at this moment - will take another day perhaps? at least the tax paperwork for 2000 is done, phew. can buy new car easier after that? har har.

take it easy y'all. taaa

my kitty died. with eyes open, frozen (rigor mortis?) in a lying position. possibly reaching out for me to come save it.

barely a month old. and i didn't do all i could to save it. it was the cutest. it loved to sit on my shoulders, closing its eyes and resting. and it came running whenever i came home. goodbye, kitty. i know you are still around with us. in spirit. cos u know we loved you from the moment i picked you up from the drain you were stuck in.

here's to you, my darling adorable kitty.

LUCIANO (LUCY) CHARICHAN
29TH OCTOBER 2002
Thank you for loving us.

we'll remember you for being the fuzzy thing running around following me while i went about doing my stuff. take good care.

e.

i have descended to the depths of hell. the devil herself (?) is the Dentist. all dressed in white robe and face-mask. not now, not after just reading about Nazi atrocities at Auschwitz. uuurrgggghhh. so today was my first time to a dentist after about 15 years. in all that time all manner of plaque and what-nots have attached themselves to my crowning glory, my chompers. and so my nightmare began... one hour plus of grinding and sucking. can still taste the blood, oi. good as new now! hehehe almost worth the torture, and the financial damage... ouch.

for those in a fix for some quickie SM - visit the nearest dental clinic. sure to please wan. what more, it's legal. ouch. mmmm. there's a scene in the movie Marathon Man from umpteen years ago, where Dustin Hoffman is tortured by Nazis in a dental chair. that scene plays in my head every time i visit that place. adoi.

waterfalls are fun! was at the one at Hulu Langat, which took 2 hours to find. oh it was nice. natural slides, ultra-cold water, and greenery. evidently some idiot has been illegally felling the bamboo in the area, probably to make lemang for Raya. stop it will ya. go get it from the pasar borong. the waterfall was full of people but managed to find a quiet-enough spot to laze about in, without having someone trip on my face or something like that. weee! now i wonder what exciting thing shall i do next weekend... cable car ride to genting? a day at the beach? mmm. please send me your ideas - very much appreciated!

back to work, ladies and gentlemen. take good care and have the loveliest week.

tired. that's the keyword for the day. i wonder why. perhaps having only 3 hours of sleep on Sunday's the answer. only myself to blame. oh, and my wonderful trip to Desa Waterpark. always love this kinda place. except for when it's crowded. yesterday the place was absolutely back-to-back with people. didn't help that at least 4 companies or organisations were having their Family Days or what-not. so there we were bobbing around in the wave pool and bumping into the other 326 people in there as well. luckily this time i put on the sunblock, so i didn't end up like one Grilled Homo Sapiens. the rides were fun, until some idiot stole my float. no more rides after that. the best is Desa Waterpark's great view, and proximity to, the Indah Water oxidation pond. sweet smells and sounds. heh heh.

this weekend, my posse will be off to the waterfalls. yippee! there's these spots on the Cheras highway halfway to Kajang, after Plaza Phoenix i believe. pack some sandwiches and mineral water, and it should be a great day! join me y'all.

taaaaa

had the best sort of dream. seems like i was in a store or warehouse. and somehow i got to kill a group of intruders. a few of them. lots of blood. pretty exciting. all that gore, and i just walked away from the scene of the crime. what does it all mean, i wondered as the handphone alarm went off and i came back to reality (what is real, we must question ourselves).

must stop watching violent bloody movies (e.g. Blade II), conspiracy-theory books (currently into one called Mysteries of the Unexplained or something like that), and Anne Rice (reading The Vampire Armand, which is taking forever, since 1999, i believe!). how about a lovey-dovey movie, eh. like The Sweetest Thing - this is a GREAT movie! catch it, pronto. didn't stop laughing from the time i stuck the CD in. and of course it's got a great cast to look at (ogle at?): Cameron Diaz, Christina Applegate, and Selma Blair. Plus that dude whose name i forget. Now, if i remembered the chappie's name, that would be a problem, right? No?

off to melaka today for a relative's wedding. sure to be loads of fun. it's gonna be a Eurasian-Portugese thing so rest assured there'll be lots of booze. yummy. time to let rip! hee hee.

post-mortem when i finally wake up on Monday.

see ya!

hungry now. think i'll get some seafood noodles in Sri Petaling, pricey but pretty good, not salty like some other soup noodles. mmm. a prawn or two, some cuttlefish, crabsticks (or rather, crab-flavoured fish-sticks), veggies, clams, and squid, if i remember well. all gone in the blink of an eye. H U N G R E E E E ! ! ! will anyone buy me dinner....

jogging status:
wow, every week i get better. first time it was just barely 2 rounds of the Bukit Jalil park. it's barely a park. having a lake, a track, and some spartan trees which hardly provide shade, does not make a park.
anyways, the next time, it was 3 rounds of it, then last nite, it was four or so. wow. i impress myself sometimes.
after all that working out my lungs, i went on to smoke some shisha. all health benefits of jogging, gone in a puff.

hee hee.

have a headache of enormous magnitude. no not that kind of headache lah (pf, can almost imagine u sniggering!). though i wouldn't mind some of that therapy. this one all financially-induced. what else.

almost every night i dream of budget resorts, white beaches, and translucent green seas, with corals and beautiful fish in abundance. is that my destiny as i've always pictured it? i think so. i've always imagined myself living by the beach, running a resort. and if i was hungry, i'd just go spear a fish. and barbeque it on the beach. yummy. images of 'Castaway' but not so teruk lah. perhaps it's time to make my dreams come true. we can't run from our true destiny. dreams are actually easy to achieve, once we cut through the bullshit we tell ourselves. one wise man once penned, the only barrier is ourselves.

had some curry chicken for lunch. was nice together with the teh tarik. most mamak / indian stalls and warungs do not know the concept of 'kurang manis'. time for me to educate them. send it back if it's too sweet! just discovered i've got inherited risks of diabetes (patrilineal) and blood pressure problems (matrilineal), one of which i already have symptoms. (jeez my english sucks). so do i just give up, drink some more, eat heartily, be merry to an early end? i don't think so. will go jogging later.

later alligators.

eek.

can't make it for my October fun-in-the-sun. just too many woes to tackle first. a lot of times, when i close my eyes, i see little fishies swimming by... think the salt-water i ingested 2 weeks ago has infected my brains with some marine virus that makes me wanna go back...

caught that Ali G movie again - damn! it's even funnier the 3rd time around! cool dude, makes body popping look cool... (now i close my eyes and think back to the bad ole days of electro and all that jazz... mmm.... i'm a dinosaur lah!!! ) for those who haven't seen it - get it! it puts Austin Powers to shame leh.

right then. back to work. gladly. gotta get the dosh, u know.

still wishing i was back at the beach. in fact, did dream about it a few times. weird. and this morning - front page shot of Navy divers cleaning up coral reef. at what is probably my next destination, lumut/pangkor. this is a BIG sign. i must go. must follow the yellow brick road. if i click my heels twice i'll end up in the middle of the ocean with nothing but a mask and a snorkel. my fairy godmother is gonna grant me this wish NOW.

reality check.

no money, no honey.

think i'll eat some more to mask my frustrations.

taaa

err... wow what happened to the days, like express-train lah. it's been a lovely week!

was in pulau tioman, sun-tue. apart from the tiring travelling (car, boat), it's one great place. highlight of the trip was my day of snorkelling. phew wow!!! never before have i swum alongside so many fish. all colours, sizes, shapes. and the coral formations - all kinds too! a little scary cos they do look intimidating... can't step on em, right, cos they cut the feet? i got a teeny-weeny cut on my thigh, god knows from where, probably from the boat itself. was wondering if the lil blood would attract any sharks... har har!!! mmm...

no doubt i'm a lot darker now. oh, i'm gonna go snorkelling every coupla months from now. any good places on the west coast? lemme know ok. as far as i know, the west coast waters are crap. perhaps further away, like Pangkor or Langkawi. one more thing - i hate big resorts! Berjaya Tioman... uurrggghhh.... dinners cost RM49. and to eat at the warung - to get there, we gotta pay for transport, not cheap cos we kena tourist prices all the way... ouch. methinks i'll go to Pangkor next, about 3 hours' drive away. it's been a long time, and it does have its own special charm. cheap accommodation and food, for one. don't know about now cos it's been perhaps ten years since.

but of course after all that fun in the sun, the troubles of reality creeps up and smashes itself onto our soft cushy faces, head-on, steamrolling whatever lingering happy-feelings we had. back to work, bay-beh's. the usual banking mess-ups, work-related chaos, etc. jeez. think i'll run a cheapo resort after this.

taaaa

sweet decadence pervades my being like a rampaging disease.

anyone watched that movie Caligula? me oh my, talk about 'all-also-can'. it's somewhat over-rated, but then, back when it was made, i suppose it was hot stuff lah... har har. with movies like Eyes Wide Shut in general release these days, and the profusion of porn everywhere, Caligula's not gonna raise an eyebrow, dude.

really boring today, just sitting here. oh, will go for a drive later. my customer awaits! yeah! money to be made. only thing is, i have to improve on my half-hearted efforts at creating new customers *sigh* oh lazy me.

what movie to watch tonight ah? last one was My Big Fat Greek Wedding - that was real funny, man. only thing is, it's not for those of you whose mamas are constantly pestering you to get hitched. avoid or watch alone, away from mama.

cold in here. gonna attempt some shut-eye.

see yaaaa

lesson for the day:

don't use thinner on vcds.

there i was absolutely engrossed in watching 'Signs', that one with Mel Gibson, and it's got my favourite stuff like aliens and crop circles, and the VCD starts jamming up and skipping. ouch! in thoughtless desperation i grabbed some thinner to clear off some gum that was on the disc. *tsk tsk* i should've known from past experience that soap and water works too, as well as soft polish. and so - i think the thinner melted the layers off the CD. *sigh* time to wait for the DVD then.

cleaning CDs -
1. soap and water.
2. soft polish. not the hard ones though, they will scratch up the CD royally.

hey pf, have you arrived safely back in Oz? didn't have to click your heels twice, did you. study hard, ok. and lay off the booze! i've seen pictures of damaged livers. not appetising. (is that word spelt with an 's' or with a 'z'?)

back to work now. as it is, Signs took half my morning. suitably warmed up with my duck-and-noodles lunch, i will face the world. the painful realities it shoves up our arses without a pause. hmmmppphhhh.

e.

i should be very very busy but here i am reading blogs.then it'd be a mad mad rush right after. *sigh* the evils of procrastination and laziness.

weekend's here. work work and more work. which is good, in these circumstances.

perhaps i'll find some time to fly my kite. kites belong in the sky, not on the floor of a vehicle.

or perhaps meet some mates and have some beers. coffeeshop, pub, club, wherever, whatever.

but then - after not touching the stuff for 2 weeks or so, i find i don't like the taste that much anymore. perhaps it wasn't cold enough at that last coffeeshop?

back to work and the capitalist cycle-trap i'm in.

e.

was raining on Friday. racing at Batu 3 cancelled. weather deals a cruel blow to aspirations.

the fireworks were awesome, though. the power of the explosions, the colours, shapes. wow. am still wondering how the star-shaped ones were created.

loads of travelling for the day. let's hope the sun is kind to me. and the traffic, most of all.

taaaa

oi... why ah every day raining??? this kinda weather, only good for zzz'ing....

goodnite....

merdeka day.

raining since 1pm.

traffic like shit.
mood like shit.
weather like shit.

let's hope the rain doesn't stop the wonderful fireworks from happening!

two things i might do tonight:
1. watch fireworks at Dataran Merdeka or Bintang Walk.
2. go to Batu Tiga for the car-racing there. this will probably be happening since it's been a forever-dream to race there. won't be doing that tonight cos i'll be in the pits. wow-weee!!!

i dread the impending traffic conditions. ow-oh-wow... ouch... but to catch a dream, we have to go to any length, don't we.

consciousness is a drag.

is there ever gonna be snow in this country? watching 'XXX' and playing Boarder Zone makes me crave for snow.

yummy.

blur blur.

that describes half the people in this country. the half that's not aware of the concepts of auras, chakras, and that sorta mumbo-jumbo. there i was going on about the colours of the aura on a person and all i get is, 'are you nuts?'

heheheh i haven't seen an aura yet, but we can all sense it, can't we. must get one of em cameras which can capture it. i wonder what colour mine would be - probably blue... but sometimes going over to black when i'm in one of my crazy homicidal moods. those times when i get a smile just thinking of breaking a nose or cracking a skull and watching blood ooze out of someone... ooooh....

okay enough of macho talk.

how's the PPG movie, does anyone know?

taaaa

Dearest Sze Ning,

The weather's fine here, apart from the pollution, the noise, the environmental degradation that us Malaysians are generally blind to. Mum's fine, Dad is broke as usual (I fear it every time he calls). Loved the pictures you have. Thanks! About PG - I don't know as yet when next I'll be there, will keep you informed.

I've got to come clean about one thing now - I might have a foot fetish! hee hee : ))

See ya

Love,
e.

i'm back again! moved hardware to my supposed office. good excuse to pretend to some work.

weekend was alright .. went kite-flying! there's this place in Selayang where people go to do that. wow! it was so fun!!! haven't done it in umpteen years, but it was just so easy. don't remember it being this easy. just let go of my newly-purchased kite, and it took off! even to the point of running out of string... it was pretty high! gonna build my own this week, with a massive wing-span, and watch it take off next Sunday. yippee!!!

and it's back to capitalist activities again... groan... sigh... yawn...

tired, bored. jaded.
capitalism sucks. the inane/ insane? requirement to make money makes me wanna puke.
make dosh to pay them bills and keep em lawyers off my back. cheeeezuzzzz.

cannot update blog and check e-mail these days cos my phone line's cut. ouch.

apart from that - aren't things just a bed of roses? one thing that keeps me going is people. oh, you humans, such objects of beauty and worthy of attention.... does that make me sound like an alien observer?

did chat with a newspaper writer last night about why people go to Uncle Don's. seems she was having a headache. next time, don't sit by the speakers. they've got huge subwoofers there. bottom line is, it's a cool place to have teh tarik. don't expect anything of the food though.

see ya all...

monday... i'm sitting here in front of PC wondering what to do for rest of day. first instinct would be to go back to sleep. not smart, that. go earn some dosh, i must. jeez. capitalism sucks.

hate-list for week:
1. bills.
2. lawyers.
3. banks and finance companies.

like-list for week (okay lah i gotta balance my life out, not everything is down and shitty)
1. c.c. my amusing daffodil.
2. movies (PPG opening this week! yippee!)
3. food.
4. pals.
5. shishah!


wow looks like my like-list is longer. reason to smile and celebrate!?!

see ya all.

my home:

coming back to it, i feel it embrace me like a long-lost family member.
i can almost hear it say, welcome home, my dear, let me hold you in my arms.
and as i lie about the place, it lulls me into a sleep.
as if to share its dreams, hopes and history with me, once again
to the realm where our perceptions of reality breaks down, fades away.
and i can almost hear the whispers of my home, the stories that yearn to be told.
it's almost as if it throbs with a consciousness. it waits and it sees. it listens.
a pulse. almost alive. i forget it's brick, plaster, wood and glass.
don't you feel it, my friends?

my life revolves around paying bills. earn, pay, earn some more, pay even more.

plus my bank is like a giant piranha - as it is my balance sucks but they insist on siphoning some away. jeeez.

*sigh*

what a shitty cycle.

getting out of this capitalist trap now by switching on the DVD - Memento, great movie - and going swimming later (rather, splashing!). nothing like swallows of chlorine in the mouth to clean the pathogens there.

my pal wants to set up a commune. thinking hard about joining up. nothing like a self-supporting organic commune, do some planting, hiking, and all the nature stuff, letting it all hang out... mmm....

taaaa

too much alcohol is bad for the system, and work-day in general. my friend's birthday, and we had too much stout. ouch. still got a slight throb in my head. should be gone by the morning...

wish so much for a nap now. mmm...

seems i must learn some graphic design software like CorelDraw, pronto. should be fun. anyone with any pointers as to the best and easiest one to learn really really fast?

it's August. i'm due for my extended trip to some island paradise. have one getaway planned for September but that's just too far away... Penang sounds like a good place to hang out for a weekend. hello Penangites, here i come!!!

aaahhhh monday's here. welcome! sunday was great, got to drive to Genting Highlands for the day. actually turned up there around 3am. slept a bit then on to the top. with regrets. i really hate the crass commercialism of the entire place. EVERYTHING needs money. luckily the toilets were still free-of-charge. had RM10 mee with roast duck. ouch. by 1pm, couldn't wait to get out of there. best thing was the Coffee Bean's cappuccino and Choc chip muffin (huh? drive one hour to get that sorta thing??? har har. welcome to the global village) in the cool noon air.

bought DVDs after - Mulholland Drive and Queen of the Damned. the former, is one whack movie. i don't get it. sometimes i wish for a linear storyline where everything's answered at the end, no matter how confusing it was during the movie proper? well, this movie doesn't do that. i had half-expected it to end mid-scene, or something like that. that didn't happen, but it was just as confounding. must watch again.

alright, off to the bank now, seems i'm short of money. woops. pity the bank officer (Zam, i think his name is) who keeps having to call everytime my balance is negative... thank you, my man. will see you at the branch in 15 minutes!

have a nice day y'all.

haahahaa i know now which Powerpuff Girl i am....




how true. i AM a homo sapiens adorabilis.

next thought of the moment - what to have for tea??? i'm gaining the kilos, so i should have nothing heavier than a roti kosong. actually i haven't got an appetite, just that i hate the hungry, empty-stomach feeling which i know i'll have around 9pm...

can't wait for the movie to open. let's hope it gets more than a U / G rating so we might get a chance to see some blood and dismemberment. yummy.

time to plug a movie:

caught The Eye last night. It is DAMN GOOD lahhhh! more amazing that i actually understood the dialogue. it was in simpler Canto, much more so than Hongkong movies. simple scripts make for good scary movies. actually jumped in my seat. heheh

it's such a quiet day. think i should go to my office and do stuff, look busy, pretend like i have a job. could actually get some work done.

or i could go to sleep and let reality pass me by. i'll be content in the dreams of my own creation. my little fantasies that could not be.

good nite

i'm getting emotionally attached to my DVD player. it's a beauty, silver facade. tacky buttons and all, though. i'm sure you know what i mean, these no-brand electrical items never get their designs right. oh, the features are just lovely. i switch off mid-way thru a movie (Blade II, to be precise) and when i turn it back on, it automatically starts at the place where i stopped. simply marvellous.

aiyahhhh all my links all gone, have to start anew... waste time lorrrr....

No 643. there is actually hope, that there is someone who reads this blog.

i am full of spontaneity. tonight i just thought i'd get myself a DVD player. and now i have one, sitting alongside my well-worn and utilised Panasonic VCD player. gone are the days of having to get up mid-way to plop in disc 2. a bummer though - my Austin Powers, The Spy Who Shagged Me, does not work. damn. really spoilt the whole evening. it skips and jams somewhere around the Jerry Springer-Dr Evil-Scott Evil scene. damn, just when things heat up.

one thing to watch out for in these cheapo Made-In-China electrical equipment - they leak electricity. i found out the hard way, when plugging in the many cables. plus it seems to emit a lot of heat for a player that consumes 30 watts. and don't China-made products
have a tendency to blow up as well??? please do keep me informed of any real cases.

latest habit then - DVD shopping! lemme see - the 2 Austin Powers movies (let's not include Goldmember, don't feel like one of em cinema-copies where we get to see the silhouettes of people coming into the cinema late, as well as the toilet-goers), 2001,2010, and was there ever a 3010? i think there was but can't recall for sure. the guy at the stall the other day was trying to push a 3- and 5- hour porn DVD. now... THAT will be a cure for insomnia!!! jeeezzzz how much of the missionary can we take?

gonna catch my zz's now... have a great Monday!

DAMN the skies turned gloomy. as it always does at noon, these days. the rain might nourish my plants. but it also means my clothes won't get dry. shit. i run my washing machine every day. that's just for my clothes. do i change frequently? are my clothes loose and baggy? do i change my sheets every day? wow. detergent and softener running out. am progressively becoming more domesticated to the point i ponder on the interior design of my humble abode. lots of leaky pipes and hoses in this house. it's a insect breeding module, with human occupants sometimes. there was one little cute rat but he's dead now cos i put the trap at the spot it / he often hangs out and watches me while i surf the net. my nocturnal companion, dead, from my selfish act.

everything is not going right today. vehicles brakes busted, much of my profits for the last few days gone into it. then on way back, i was yacking on phone and cop on motorbike stops me. shit shit shit. i dispose of him quickly, Malaysian-style. then i forget to deliver an item to a friend. which means now i gotta make an unnecessary trip. and my customers whom i mean to call, i've not. my handsfree for the phone is busted. shit shit shit.

what else can NOT go my way? i don't hope for it. things can only get better?

still got the taste of this morning's fried tung fun (glass noodles?!!) . pretty good, except there was no cockles and chilli. i want it pedas!!! no friggin mood for lunch after my shitty morning, which i set out to be good actually.

ah well enough of my bitching. party on, it's Friday!!! yeahhhhh

it's friggin' gloomy out there. lazy laaaa wanna do anything at all. need to boost my clock-speed.

last night was a different ballgame altogether! wow. we were at Hard Rock, where everyone (including the band) looked like they were gonna fall asleep. so after one drink, about 15 minutes' worth, we moved on to Nouvo. not too crowded, but still lots of lovely people to gawk at. including meself, of course ( a spot of ego-inflating there, for sure ). problem was, the place only started filling up close to 1am, and for us old fogeys, bedtime was drawing near. *sigh*

all in all, a lovely distraction from the dreariness of everyday existence. mine, at least, which is usually full of... nothing. did watch a movie on VCD, Bend it Like Beckham. highly amusing, and touching at the end. only thing is the Brit accent - us Malaysians need subtitles for that-lah. or some English-to-Manglish dictionary.

more movies for the night... oh lazy me.

taaaa

there's maybe six people in the whole of this world of 6.4 billion who read this blog.

and these six - could you please click on the link that says 'Give it to me baby' and leave your thoughts there. i crave for your comments...

my fate today... there i was coming out of the bank, humming to myself, got into my vehicle, started reversing, and... BOOM! right into the car who's stopped behind me. bloody fools. which means my bank account is further diminished. no-one else to blame but myself. been pretty careless lately while driving. should not take things for granted, you know. simple stuff like looking into the rear-view mirror... *sigh* ah well, let's hope the rest of my day picks up.

lemme see -it's Wednesday. possibility of a drink-up with my cuz visiting from Ozzieland. lunch with my ex-workmate. YOU GO GIRL! she wants to quit job and do her own biz. my only advice is - GO FOR IT! that way, we get the chance to look after the kids, go at own pace, watch TV, and my fave stuff-to-do which is going on now - getting online and laundry during supposed working hours! heh heh. my laundry's almost done. can someone please analyse my dislike for putting up the clothes to dry? shit the machine just stopped, which means... i gotta put it to dry. urrggghhh. anyone else with this problem?

gotta go do some capitalist related stuff now. why are people killing each other?

hmmpphh.

it's one of those days when nothing happens. in my scheme of things, nightfall always brings more action. it's almost 6pm. some days, i'll be out jogging or cycling. other days, sipping / gulping (depending on the mood) an ice-cold stout or beer. today - feel like buying an obscure VCD and assimilating whacky concepts and ideas. like the stuff in animes. script's so tacky that it actually almost makes sense.

what are YOU doing this evening? click on the remarks section and let me know your thoughts...

goodnite.

in the past few days i got to do some of my favourite things:

1. foot reflexology - this is becoming quite a pastime, apart from the price-tag. oooo pleasures, the prospect of a good night's sleep after.
2. watch complex anime - in the middle of a really complicated one called [X], complete with obscure new age dialogue and half-naked chicks.
3. break apart someone else's vehicle.

time flies too fast for me. whatever happened to my lovely Sunday? where has it gone?

nohopestalker - u got someone liking you? so what you afraid of? go for it! you obviously like the attention... doesn't matter la, nowadays, stuff like age, gender, etc...

i have a supposedly busy day. i see myself watching TV til at least noon.

see ya

nothing nothing nothing.

speaking of pyromania - i played a lot with fire when i was growing up. lighting candles, burning stuff, that sorta thing.

until the day i almost burnt my house down! har har. that put a stop to my fiery ambitions.

apart from the infamous petrol pump incident, that is. get me drunk enough and i might tell that tale : ) or did i spill that in an earlier blog? don't remember. it was very hard-core, dudes and dudettes. don't try it yourself. there must be a reason why pumps don't dispense until we've paid for it.

have a nice day.

i wake up on Wednesday and wonder what the hell's going on.
nothing nothing.
the breeze is blowing gently. the flowers need their water.
work needs to be done.
movies to watch.
places to see.
burn burn.

pyromania could be fun.

getting hooked on the anime on telly - the character's eyes are always so exaggerated. and always with a hint of a tear in em. the theme songs are usually good too.

bills bills bills
electric bills
telephone bills
credit card bills
automobiles

love that song from Destiny's Child. real-life hits home hard.

still haven't got my gramma a pressie, and her birthday's tomorrow. what can i get her??? jeez i hate thinking.

off to Uncle Don's tonight, to contemplate on life and what it could be...somehow the open air makes thinking easier. perhaps i'll think of a gift!

best thing about my computer area - a work-lamp from IKEA, with a purple bulb in it. cool.

goodnite

i'm so frigging prone to blood sugar levels. its so obvious when levels are down.

gotta eat eat eat.

saturdays suck. sundays suck. i suck ; )

sundays are shopping. damn i actually have a list of household items to get. how domesticated.

i'm concerned, nohopestalker's not been posting - are u alive? wake up wake up wherever you are.

later...

THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO FOR WEEKEND.

1. Jln Sultan Ismail at midnight.
2. New plants and flowers in the garden. Looking forward to a papaya tree or some other fruit-bearing tree. Papaya trees are very versatile, though
; )
3. Gramma's birthday celebrations on Sunday.
4. Sleeping in on Sunday morning.

Watching a movie called CHANGING LANES now - looks good, think i'll focus on watching it now. Enjoy.

i got my car back.

as predicted - whatever that could be removed, was removed. so began my run-about for the day. nobody wanted to take responsibility. the cops sent me all over the place. the investigating officer didn't want to do any work on his own. wonder what's he paid for. I was told to go do the paperwork for that dude. imagine. in this day and age, these authority figures STILL don't get the usefulness of utilising their computer systems which ARE already in place. huh. think i should go into Info Systems and make my main customer the Govt. I'd be rich in no time at all. suckers.

apart from this frigging glitch, life's pretty good. biz should be picking up this half. i should be able to pay the bills. finally. my phone line won't get cut and i'd still be able to get online. i'd still be connected to the wonderful world of ASTRO. I LIVE!

time to get some breakfast. not even 8am and i'm already hyped up about my day. wantan mee should be good to kickstart everything. oh how i wish i was in Penang now, to have some heavenly char koay teow. or hokkien mee.

1. Hokkien mee (Penang) - noodles in prawn-based spicy soup, with chicken/pork, kangkung (water convulvulus, hee hee), egg, and taugeh (bean sprouts, is it?!)
2. Hokkien mee (Klang Valley) - noodles fried in a blackish soya sauce base, with pork, pork lard, veggie, fish cake. Tastes like heaven especially with sambal, garlic and cili padi.

This morning i'm referring to (1). don't think i can find (2) at 8am. Is Fried Hokkien Mee a lunch/dinner/supper dish? i believe so. but then - since when were we Malaysians subject to such decorum? anytime is a good time to eat anything, right?!!! hee hee.

off i go for my makan. wish me luck on my calorie count.

it's 12pm and i'm hardly awake. there doesnt seem to be much life here in town. everyone's at work. and perhaps i should be too.

good news for the day - i'm getting my car back! FYI it's been...err... how shall i put it... in the safekeeping of the finance company for a few months! hee hee. even though i don't have much affection for that car, it would be good to see it again. at least i'd be able to get around a lot easier. one of em crappy Satrias, with things falling apart... first thing would be for me to change the muffler cos it makes way too much noise! people know i'm on my way about half a km away. something a little subtler would be nice. and the amplifier - just can't live without music, and the present one's busted from sonic overdose. IF it's still in the car, that is... anyone nicking that unit won't have much luck with it, anyways.

uurrrggghhh need to lie back for a while... the reflexology session was just too good last night. not only were my feet assaulted, my head, back and arms were given adequate attention as well. oh for a slice of heaven. FYI the place is called Rest, Relax and Reflex (catchy name, that!) located at 4th Floor KLCC(top floor with all the beauty salons and medical centres) and also at Sri Hartamas, somewhere around the Souled Out there. after a hard day, it's the loveliest.

taaa have a nice day...

wonder how my newly-married buddy is doing. probably as frustrated as ever. somehow this particular institution holds no fascination for me. i'd love to make babies though. little cute innocent empty vessels just waiting to be filled with the crap the world has to offer. no worries i know where i'll be coming from when i get to that point.

ohhhh yeaaahhhh seems like i've been semi-residing in Sri Hartamas the past few days, starting from Saturday. every night chillin' out there... Uncle Don's becoming too much of a regular hangout. and my lungs, filled with smoke from the hookah... can't be good having all that smoke in me, can it?

i know this woman. she's tall, beautiful, big smile, and a seemingly endless supply of optimism. she's also got cancer and it's spreading like wildfire. at this moment in time she's so full of life, energy and light, that i've got a lot to learn. Carpe diem. Seize the moment. that's what she's doing. not taking any minute for granted. how many minutes do we really have? this particular lady - WOW! she's infectious in her will to LIVE and make it through the day. i could hardly believe when she said she vomits blood every day. it's never fair is it, dear God.

And here i am, this useless lazy piece of shit, not worthy of the air i breathe, uncaring and selfish. and in almost-perfect health. it's never fair, dear God. and tonight i believe in the power of prayer. I pray for you, for the difference you've made in those around you. I pray that your strength, power, and optimism will prevail over all. Thank you for the lessons. This life we take for granted. God will listen to my prayer tonight. I want Him to. This world needs a candle in these times of darkness. And not have that light snuffed out when it's about to shine so bright. God please no no no no.

It's never fair is it.

seize the moment. i must.

AVOID SCOOBY DOO THE MOVIE AT ALL COSTS!!! Unless you're below 5 years of age (or possess an equivalent mental age.) Caught up on my sleep then. OH GOOD LORD! with an A-List cast, why was that movie ever made??? there goes Freddie Prinze Jr and Matthew Lilliard's careers.... UUURRGGGHHHH!!!! No 1 movie in the US???? says a lot of the Americans, not that there was ever any doubt about that.

Think i'll dig up Pulp Fiction or Trainspotting and regain my sanity.

and what a wedding that was. never been to a wedding where the prevalent feeling in the air was tension and dislike. one big thought going thru my mind was, What the hell is this function about??? Why the hell are these 2 idiots getting married for?? But.. of course, as best man, and being obligated to say a few words at dinner-time, i reserved my comments and just wished them best of luck. Luck in humongous proportions required.
Groom didn't even bother to turn up for the better for his own wedding as well. Usual self. Drunk for own wedding. Hmmm. Does not bode well. Especially if the only words out of the bride's mouth, on her wedding day, is 'I'm so disappointed with your friend.' Broke my heart to hear those words.

sad sad day it was, having sulky bride and groom, fathers and mothers. does not bode well.

lots of stuff to do today so off i go, into the heat of the day. taaa

today is a special special day. my forever-buddy's getting married today, and i am the best man. first time for me too... i'm really really excited at making that speech! get chance to kutuk the guy in front of 600 people, heh heh heh!!! wish me luck.... i'm not even preparing a speech, just gonna spout whatever's in mind. there IS an agenda though - we're trying to get key people drunk so it will be much more merrier... or that tongues become looser after a few... mmm.... devious, devious.

gonna be a great day!

i'm growing hair... does that mean i'm finally growing up as well? ; )

hungry hungry - i crave this morning for my beef noodles which they have at the coffeeshops one minute's walk away. soon, soon. and a cuppa hot teh to kick-start the day. YEAH!

taaaa

one song that can really pick me up - Groove Armada's See You Baby. Man, that song's SOOOOO SEXXAAAYYYYY..... can anyone ever resist the chorusline??? it's one of those pieces of music that makes me wanna get up and get going, as well as do the most hardcore bump'n'grind with the closest female... ooooh yeaaahhhhhh. IT IS really such an energetic, get-your-ass-off-the-seat sorta song isn't it. Ditto for other Groove Armada's stuff, like Supastylin' and Fogma... wow. lovely. time to dig out the CD.

have been invalid the past 2-3 days. god i hate these sorta days. so many things to do, but the body is just not willing. and for such trivial reasons too, this cursed flu virus that has invaded my body. fight on i must, to regain my full consciousness. this bothersome twit! woops off i go to sleep now... the medication makes me all woozy.... zzzz....

no-one reads my blog anymore : ( okay, i know i've not been dedicating myself to my computer as much as i should, and i think it misses me as well...

think i've had too much teh tarik over the past 3 days. from craving it, to overdosing... it's no fun. after all, tea's a diuretic...

THE QUEST FOR THE PERFECT CUPPA. i know the worst kind lah - coloured, recycled tea leaves with no taste at all. and the cheek to use this crap and serve it to the public. dangerous it could be... and the best sort? the milky, frothy, perfectly pulled, with the ideal mixture of condensed and evaporated milk, a touch of sugar. mmmm. delicious, scrumptious.

har har, watched this movie, ALI G IN DA HOUSE... hee hee, what a load of laffs! watch this if you're bored and and/or and Anglophile. aiyoh yoh, this is one crazy middle-finger-in-yer-face movie. FYI, Ali G is the guy in Madonna's Music video. full-scale breakdancing in here, dude.

i'm really so blur these days. practically doing next to nothing. need that whack in the head i've been asking for. maybe that holiday in the sun is just what i need... sand, surf, broken glass on the beach... a typical Malaysian picture of paradise.

think i'm getting teh tarik withdrawal symptoms. haven't had one since... err... 2.30am. i fought off the urge at lunch today (1.00pm) which was uncalled for. I WANNA MY TEH TARIK!!! why did i ever say no to a lovely teh tarik, i wonder... crazy me!!!

well, teh tarik is a mighty good diversion away from the harsh realities of life. okay, i know i'm a lazy, under-achieving, slacker dude, but for me to have to go to the frigging court next Tuesday due to my financial irresponsibilities? this is too much to bear.... ouch. this pain, even more than the S-M i crave for.... dripping candle wax, anyone?

only one thing for me to do - get to work. such an easy answer. get my backside off this seat and actually achieve some stuff. quite easily done, i must say. which makes my pain even greater.

see ya

have not had my teh tarik, kurang manis, for today. i did have a teh peng, though, and what a scary teh ais it was. firstly, these chaps at the coffeeshop had run out of ice. so the chap, elderly fellow that he is, started scraping the freezer for whatever ice that had formed in there. uurrrggghhh. even yuckier: i drank it all.

and the beauty of it was: being at the coffeeshop and not having my usual brewed, fermented, bottled drinks. i AM getting stronger by the day!

aiyoh... lost whatever i was spouting earlier. goddamm and i thought i was making some sense.

right now i have one choice to make, and it seems remarkably deep at this point: shall i go to the mamak stall, or not??? the grand questions that bugs me at this point - to have the maggi goreng with chicken or without? the answer's obvious. chicken rocks! of course mutton is the king of all meat lah, but... i don't think my heart / blood cholesterol will appreciate it now. especially as i haven't been on my biking / jogging routine. so many things to do, so much to see, so much to experience...

Is this a life of beauty? Do we live every single moment as if it was a new one, with new choices to make?! Yes yes and yes. Oh how i want to live every moment, shining, brilliant, and being the most excellent i can ever be. Forgetting the disappointments of the last minute, and living THIS moment as if everything counted on it. Like it was the last one, my last breath...

I'd have the maggi with chicken, please. Together with life-enhancing hot cup of teh tarik, kurang manis, of course.

am back from the land of the living.

was at the beach the other day. i found out how Tanjung Biru (Blue Lagoon) in port dickson got its name. the moon, by some trick of nature, bathes the entire place in a sheen of blue. it's almost surreal. everything's in a blue hue. remarkable.

i can't seem to access this blog! what the f is wrong lah... hmm let's try posting this, and see if we can access it. hey nohopestalker, put me back on your links! huh.

HAPPY MOVIE OF THE WEEK: NATIONAL LAMPOON'S VAN WILDER Really, this movie has not much going for it, but - on a boring day this is packed with laughs and silly college humour. Puts the smile back on your face, and ready for your dreaded MOndays. And there's the boy-meets-girl-fights-with-girl-and-get-back-together happy ending. GOD i'm a sucker for happy lovey-dovey endings. I know i deserve a happy ending myself... : )

Taaaa

i know! i've been spending my time burning CDs! what a great invention, the CD writer. even ran out of CDRs! so fast they go. anyone with sites to download songs?

haven't had my HAPPY MOVIE OF THE WEEK thing for some time, eh. i wonder why. haven't had the chance to catch a movie, duh. my VCDs are collecting dust...

yesterday i saw a fallen motorbike. i also saw about 2 pints of blood on the ground, in a pool. never seen that before. stomach-turning, that sight. my first thought was, is the poor chap alive?

bikers, do take care out there okay. don't ride like bloody pricks. the results can be painful. fatal, even.

chasing demons? fitting description? mmmm.

blooming hot out there. think i'll hole up for the day.

melancholy sweet melancholy.

think i'll watch Pulp Fiction for the x'th time.

can never get enuff of the syringe in the heart scene. Uma Thurman. never can act.

or where the neo-Nazi white guys get what they deserve. ouch. oh wow. pity the movie does not elaborate on their retribution.

and Harvey Keitel. cool shit there.

WATCH THIS MOVIE.

and it doesn't fall into the HAPPY MOVIE OF THE WEEK category. funny movie perhaps.

see y'all

i'm awake!

somehow i got to experience the pleasures of sleep, to the point of absolutely ignoring my alarms! must be having one of those dreams where we've got alarms ringing in the dream, and in a daze we switch off the damn thing (in my case, it's the HP alarm) and go back to the dream-state we were in. syok-nye!!!

i had a shock just before noon. i was in Shah Alam, passing by the Worldwide Business Centre. There's the BN office there. and right below their lightbox, was a banner which proclaimed, 'TOWARDS ZERO OPPOSITION' or something to that effect. this was scarier than anything i ever seen, even 'The Omen.'

how that banner came about i wonder. even the PM has said in the media that the opposition is necessary. so what was it all about? i tremble at the thought. is this the hidden agenda?

this reeks of 1984, lah. simply Orwellian. haven't read that book though. in a nutshell, the banner says it all, irregardless of the media hype of national unity and all that jazz. MY QUESTION IS: how the fuck did that banner ever get conceived??? it implies eradication. zero defects. it puts our freedom of thought, expression and speech in doubt. I AM REALLY REALLY SCARED. i always doubted the intelligence of politicians but this banner and all that it stands for - IT FUCKING SCARES ME. where are we heading to? i'm pretty apolitical. but no doubt decisions made may affect us, in a personal way. zero opposition: do i go to jail for having this blog?

where is this heading to? what does it say about Malaysian unity? what does it say about Bangsa Malaysia? can we ever friggin achieve that? what new games are being played on the national front? what? what? what?

smokescreens, more smokescreens. just like the octopus that lets out its ink to fool its foe.

it's been always the same since way back then. oh-so-suspicious of each other. we might as well revert back to the kampung-new village-rubber estate way of existence. why bother interacting at all?

i remember that time in the 90s when there was some tangible unity in the air. we were like, working together and stuff. probably starts with doing business, then romance, and all that. it was a real feeling, you know. then it all came crashing down, can't really remember what happened but i smelt some conspiracy theory in the air. i like to say, the old British style of divide-and-conquer (ref: kampung/nv/estate). the Powers-That-Be have adopted that tactic well. DO REALIZE THIS. a lot of things will start making sense. like media hype vs. real-life actions. it's all around us.

man i'm pooped. not enough sleep. doing all sorts of crazy things. laughing my head off
can't have too much of a good thing, you know. har har har! of course we can. i do.

see y'all when i finally wake up.

...stab a sorry heart
with your fav'rite finger
paint the whole world blue
and stop your tears from stinging...

Echo & The Bunnymen, it was.

Nostalgic, i seem.

Street soccer. Had so much fun. Playing in the rain, letting loose. Getting injured. Someone whacked my thigh. Hurts like hell even now. Well. All for the fun of it. Just ignore the fact our team - Third Leg Whopper FC - lost all our 3 games by a margin of at least 5 goals.

Running around in the rain is good therapy.

Next - we're going for national level! Yippee!

No alcohol for the next five days. I love it.

Only lotsa loving, caring and sharing. Oh i love it even more.

What a blast this week will be!

I HAVE SUCCUMBED TO CONSUMERISM!

The damage, so far, in the past week:
1. One pair of shoes, leather, slip-ons.
2. One pair, slippers, velcro straps
3. Four neckties.
4. One jacket, grey, cooler than ice.
5. One 'caveman' / Fred Flinstone costume
6. Countless litres of petrol
7. Soft drinks and Milo ais by the dozens.
8. Lost count: Guinness, Kampai, Anchor, Carlsberg, Vodka Cruisers, et al.

Feels good to spend all that dosh. Definitely a substitute for, err, well, whatever.

More of the same in the coming week? Yeah, wish me luck.

i bought a dapper jacket today. shooting stars will land on the roof of my house. it's about the coolest grey casual jacket one ever saw. might take a pic of me in it some day, and i might oblige if u ask nicely.

and i am a material boy...

paradigm shift.
what a heavy word.
used a lot by scientists.
social or otherwise.
need one.

or at least a big whack on the head.
or half a bottle of Chivas Regal.
or Finlandia. talk about consciousness-altering, dude!

remember the great Finlandia invasion of 1994...

there are only 3 people, tops, in this universe privy to the knowledge of that.

my body aches
my heart tears
my legs are burnt (!)
my head so blur.

rain rain rain
nothing but wet wet rain
traffic traffic
we are all snails
ouch

i found that there are people who pay attention to my random words of nonsense.

1. nohopestalker - no i'm not married! i've got a phobia to commitment. or lightning bolts of revelation has not struck me yet. and they will not strike.

2. babelicious - beer belly, going going... getting bigger, stronger! judging by my consumption of food and spirits over the past 4 days... don't we just love Malaysia for its 24-hour food culture???!!! yummy. was at this restaurant called Lemon Grass, at Sg Wang. Over-rated, over-priced, but nice place to sit down, have a chat, and pig out, away from the madding crowd. The Rosemary Chicken is lovely. I had the Asam Masam Pari, which was passable.

3. daffodil, sweet daffodil. Need i say more? perhaps u win the prize for most visits to this blog! : )

I can count on both hands the number of people who drop by this blog.

lazy lazy day. activity level same as the temperature, which is substantially low due to the rains this evening...

Yawn.

Let's hope Tuesday is a lot better.

Got meself more neckties. Getting to be a fetish.

What a lovely Sunday it was...

The highlight being the costume party at Liquid KL. An expensive proposition, what with rental of props and all! Oh my, havent had so much fun in a long while! What was i dressed as? Hah! You'll have to call me to find out. Hee hee... Ooohhhh my head feels heavy from the volume of spirits that passed through my lips..... Adoi....

And football in the evenings is getting more fun by the day... Me, the sedentary net potato, the movie addict, actually on the field / pitch. Street soccer is the order of the day. My fitness is still way out of line, but... improving by the day as well. GOODBYE BEER BELLY.

Taaa

Yaayyyyy

just back from a lovely party. nothing like loud music and lotsa people. Especially the lovely people i was hanging out with. Yippee... But i'm reminded again why i go to such places more on weekdays. Ouch. The Malaysian service industry needs steroids.

Oh it's gonna be another long day. Dreamland beckons; my body must heal. Taaa

First thing when i came home was the thought that my toilet smelt funny. Time to do something about it.

It's drizzling out there. It befits the state of being. It's soothing as well. Just to hear the raindrops, the monotonous patter of it.

I smile a lot. I wonder why.

Don't feel sad for me. Feel something else. Translate that to positive emotions and vibes.
Negative feelings take up too much energy.

Goodnight.

The saddest thing to do is to shed tears on the pillow.

I always tell people never to go to sleep unhappy. I do it. I'm a hypocrite.

Melancholy, sweet melancholy.
I reach out for thee.

Damn i need to get out of this mood by 7pm tonight. Or else i'm screwed.
I've got this thing on that requires a lot of positive, loving, empathy vibes. Not sure if i'm there. Maybe half of me. My other half? Hmm.

Maybe this morning i shall cry. Just a little.

For when i have tears borne of sadness, fear, hurt, and depression
The darkness that envelopes me is all-pervasive
The creeping darkness that fills our hearts up
The vacuum whence once was what matters most.

Cry no more.

I've shed a great many tears in my life. I speak not of tears of joy, i refer to those of pain and darkness. So much pain, so many tears, so many wet bedsheets.

I will only have tears of joy.

I got a song in my head

..Life, goes on day after day...
...Each, in their own secret ways...

Ferry Across the Mersey, i believe.

So there.

Best washing powder : Kao Attack. For the price, it works well, and does not clot when in contact with water. Unlike some other brands. Not telling which. And the volume used is less. Ease of use, very good.

Best fabric softener : Comfort, Sunshine scent. Think it's called that, in the yellow container. Smells absolutely smashing especially after clothes have been well-sunned.

Best bath soap : Dettol Original. Have basically stopped using anything else. Protex comes close... but... I'm not saying i'm a messy sort!

... and toilet cleaners really smell the worst!

Amazingly domesticated, I am.

Bookstores are nice, especially the new generation of giant ones - Kinokuniya (hey i got it right) and MPH at MidValley (I swear i got lost there). Encouraging the reading habit is commendable. THE PRICES, on the other hand, is preposterous. One book I bought, priced at RM40, and 2 weeks later, the same book, being new stock i assume, was being sold at RM50. Ouch.

Errr... Where in frigging hell are schoolchildren going to find that kinda money?

Malaysia - free-wheeling, capitalist, profiteering. Oftentimes absurdly so. We are the land of multiple-distribution-channels! Long live that system.

My next book purchase : The Canterbury Tales, by Geoffrey Chaucer. Will elaborate after I'm done with it, which should be around 2005.

Strange fact for the day : At 5.45pm I was downloading pictures of strawberries.

I braved the storm-clouds and went for a cycle. I've loved cycling forever, since i learnt it sometime when i was 9. There's a sense of freedom, liberation, in being able to glide freely around. Something like driving and flying a plane i suppose? I stopped today's journey when i found i was breathing in more COx than oxygen and air.

I'm singing in the rain....

Man, it pours every evening these days. How the hell am i gonna get my dose of the outdoors? Don't expect me to get up at 6am and go round around in the dark... sounds like my bedtime lah, then. Or should i just be extreme about it, and go ride around in the storm anyways??!!! Cool.

I found out something about me today. The Thing That I Fear. Could be that thing called rejection. Which means i doom myself to failure at everything, right from the start. I hope not. Not this time. I know what I'll do - I'll take a deep breath and jump into the deep end of the swimming pool.

Which reminds me, I feel like going to the pool in the morning... Yippee!

The loveliest things in life come in small packages.

I know this 7-year old, his name's Aiman. I've got his picture in my wallet, where we'd usually find girlfriends' or wives' pictures. He's about 3 feet tall, has about the biggest smile anyone ever saw, and the greatest optimism and dose of happiness in anyone i ever met. Some of it might have been acquired from his mama. But God played a big part in making Aiman the lovely human being that he is.

I believe some of us discover the secrets to living earlier than others. This is one kid who was probably born with it, if we were to believe his mother. I met him about six months ago, and took an instant liking. I mean, what's there not to like? We became instant friends. Just like all who've met him and love him. I mean, everyone, in fact, without exception.

There is so much that I've learnt from him. The ability to share love. How to let the child in us out. Hey, we can't be forever be bitching about how life is so frigging bad, right. We gotta play sometime. All work and no play... How we need to goof off sometime. The little things we take for granted, like friendship... I love the way his eyes shine when I meet him. Now THAT's genuine.

For the good and the bad, dearest Aiman, do stay the beautiful person that you are. However tough the challenges might be, however difficult life may seem at times, always hold tight to the principles you possess now, and they will carry you through - Love, Intelligence, Empathy, Understanding, Caring.

Happy birthday, sweet Aiman. Thank you, Husna and Aiman, for letting me into your space. I will see you soon.

I survive. I still hurt all over. I can't walk in a straight line. I found small solace in buying meself a pair of brown shoes. This is a twice-a-decade thing. So yesterday was a milestone. And it's only cos my sneakers are still wet. After its trip into the washing machine. Man, the machine looked like cappuccino at that point, complete with bubbles / froth at the top, and all that mud i brought back from the jungle, making it all light brown and strangely yummy. There's peace to be had watching yer shoes going round in there.

AAARRGGGHHHH i hurt so bad! I somehow signed up for this Eco-Challenge thingy today. And, boy, i don't think i want to do this again, ever! I mean, it's fun lah, going up and down hills, jumping into rivers, running (or in my case, walking) long distances and the such. It's just TOO MUCH of a good thing.... ouch, pass me the Deep Heat...

At least the leeches didn't decide to attach themselves to me. I'm really really proud of my new scratches and bruises. And my much-abused pair of 'Boks - they survived the ordeal. And in gratitude i chucked it into the washing machine (got yours fixed, pf? don't misuse the machine, you know) together with all my EXTREMELY soiled clothes, and gave it the scrub of its life. I was always afraid these shoes won't last a wash... I hope this pair does...

At the end of the day... though my team finished close to last, I am really proud and happy that we made it through. It was teamwork all the way, and the four of us were together for the whole ordeal, unlike some others who left their team members walking through the wilderness alone and all that. I appreciated that a lot... mainly cos i was oftentimes the last one panting and struggling through!!! Hee Heee....

Enjoy your weekend. What's left of it. I'm going to.

Something's growing inside me like a cancer.
It's a gnawing emptiness.
I can feel it, centimetre by centrimetre, expanding inside me.
Is it a result of my life of decadence? I know not.
Somewhere along in my journey to this point in time
I've lost my conscience. I consciously got rid of it.
I just didn't like feeling guilty about stuff.
You know, the stuff that organised religion say is wrong.
I'm not going to elaborate.

Something about the drive tonight. A roundabout journey I did take.
Reflective of the bigger journey we're all on?
From KL centre, to Sri Hartamas, to Taman Melawati, then to Klang Lama (the home of the brave - who needs the US when we got OKR??? OKR homies, stand up and take a bow)
It is cold, being rainy and all.
I started thinking about black holes. And there's one in me.
Consuming all matter from within.
And those around me as well.
I assume I'm an OK sort of chap.
But I'm not.
The darkness I harbour. A few have seen. Never comprehending.
The contradiction that I am. That we all are.

Another thought came to mind. Of all the things:
Binary code.
0 1 0 1
Amazing that even in this high-tech age -
It all still boils down to 2 choices.
0 or 1
Yes or No
Light / Dark
White / Black
Good / Evil
Good / Bad
Day / Night
Yin / Yang
Love / Hate

It's the dualities and the contradictions.
Inside us.
The choices we make. The choices we don't make.
The opposing forces, energies pulling us in opposite directions.
Even Newton understood this.

What the fuck am i going on about?

It is cold, dark, and it is time for me to sleep.

It's a lovely hot afternoon. Almost too good to be indoors. Oh no it looks like just beginning to look gloomy... Please please let the sun shine...

OH the pleasures of a long night's rest. As i dreamt indecipherable dreams of hope and redemption, my body, mind and soul healed itself, in preparation of a pretty havoc weekend...

Damn i hate my computer!!! Frigging thing just hates me in return. Here i was spinning a yarn and the friggin window just closes itself and of course i lose whatever i was working on. DAMN DAMN DAMN

Anyway i was going on and on about my impending Eco-Challenge... OH MY GOD, need some heavenly providence. Why lah did i ever commit to this. OKAY, let's make good of it and have some fun, dude... i tell myself that. ME, the fat slob and sedentary Astro-watching couch potato... I thought it was 4km, tops, for the whole course. But then - i find out it's 4km of running, 4km of this and that as well. Ouch. My poor body can't take it. Help.

So off i go this morning to get my supplies - shoes, water bottles, a bag, energy bars, first-aid kit. The latter item.... adoi. No No No NO No..... Ah well i'll be fine. Just go have some fun. If i don't post anything by Monday - please contact my emergency numbers, okay....

Apart from my stoopppeeeed PC, i think i woke up just fine, a beautiful sunny morn in which to revel in. I think i picked up nohopestalker's practice of editing and deleting posts... One important thing is to have a good time in the evening, which i did. Very much so. Lots of laughter and smiles. i'd say. Mmmmm

And off i go... have a fantastic day!

My Muse, my fair suntanned muse, 'tis proven.

Want to have satay soon.

I'm in a quandary - The Truth, or Beating around the Bush? For me i always prefer the honest-to-goodness, straightforward Truth, but that only works well in some situations which don't require tact and all that crap.

Sometimes Truth is stranger than fiction. Mine usually is.

I'm BACK from the Land of the LIVING. One sick habit of mine is procrastinating. I was Net-less cos i delayed paying my bills for 2 days. Stoopid me.

At least i caught up on my sleep. That was lovely. I dreamt on and on and on. Of What? I know not.

All i know is ... my 11-hour sleep was preceded by the lovely sounds of quacking ducks. Of luscious daffodils swaying in the breeze.

And so - Evil E wilts in the heat.

Retreats to the shade.

The shade.

Goodnite.

Oh what a nice day it's been.

It's something about this week. Just... fills my heart with such great optimism. Things just going the way i want it. Almost.
Hey, it's all sunshine and rainbows.

I even popped into a McDonald's, willingly. Wow. I'm usually dragged, kicking, screaming, bitching, into one. At least complaining about how this will screw up my calorie count and cholesterol levels lah. I'm a true-blue Malaysian. I come from a time before McD's. Give me char koay teow, nasi kandar, wantan mee, nasi padang, tom yam, even buah keluak, anytime, over a sojourn into a fast food joint. Mmmmm I haven't had dinner. It's 3am. Must be taking my calorie counting seriously. HAH! i just remembered there's leftover pasta in the fridge, yippee. Nothing like my mama's tuna pasta. Yummy. Hang on while i finish it. OH NO it's gone! Now i'm gonna starve for the morning. Ah well, will wake up early and treat meself to a nice breakfast then.

If ever in Klang - go to Indiana Cafe. It's got good food and drinks. Try the Grilled Fish with Garlic Sauce. Lovely thing, that. And the Fish and Chips. Was there last night, and had their Tom Yam Meehoon - damn it was good, and i polished it up - hungry lah, dinner at 12am... And do go up to the chap running the place, my ole pal Larry- he's a great guy and he'll make sure you have a great time. It's located along Persiaran Raja Muda Musa, that road that leads to Port Klang.

Back to the McD's fine-dining experience... iced Milo never tasted so good ; ) Was it due to the city centre heat? Possibly. Most probably it was the flower motifs - daffodils, hibiscus, and rafflesias....

'Nuff said. Time to catch some zzz's. Later....

Man, it's time to bitch about the Fuzz again. They have to realize, Respect is earned. Respect is not a given. I mean, there i was making my way home at 1.20am, sleepy as hell, after a friggin long day, after 2-3 drinks (hee hee), and there stands this young punk with a torchlight. YES you doofus i know, your friggin station's been there since friggin CNY. I don't think your stupid comments under your breath means shit to me. Say it to my face, dude. Fuzz do get retribution, you know.

I do have this vision of kicking the shit out of the Fuzz some day. It gives me great pleasure, just thinking of it. I am contradicting myself. Love, Peace and Violence? Hmmm.. Might have had too much inspiration from Malcolm X and his like. Shiver me timbers.

Whatever it was, the Fuzz is always looking in the wrong direction. So here i am home safe and sound. Ready to face another day. Fight the power. Authority and respect - earn it, you fools. Or carry on being the laughing stock, the puppets of those in Power, and those with a measly twenty ringgit to spare. Hah.

duh

UUUURRRGGGHHHH. time to wake up. obligatorily have to brush my teeth. and go out and do battle with the gods of capitalism. oh the things we do to fill our stomachs. pay for our vehicles. all that crap lah that comes with being 'adult'. There really is too much emphasis placed on that concept. Look at the 'adults' around ... frown lines, sad eyes, sulky faces, heart diseases (mmmm) .... Hey guys, go out and play sometime, is what i'd love to shout at em.

Me? I'm all play. Not too good a thing too. Doesn't help when the stomach's empty, and so's the wallet.

I'm so blur this morning. Think i need to shower now. Wake up my lazy brains, they're still in sleep mode. WAKE UP!!!!

Daffeeeeee ---> something to make you smile! All at once now.... Laa laa laaa laa la la la

LEAVING ON A JETPLANE

Ah-ah-ah-ahhh
Ah-ah-ah-ahhh

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go.
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say Goodbye

But the dawn is breaking it's early morn
The taxi's waiting he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

CHORUS
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'cause I'm leaving on a Jet Plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

Ah-ah-ah-ahhh

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now they don't mean a thing

Everyplace I go I'll think of you
Every song I sing I'll sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

CHORUS

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Then close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave you alone
About the times that I won't have to say

CHORUS

I'm leaving on a Jet Plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go.

(And I'm) Leaving on a jetplane (repeat)

Yayyyy don't i just love the spirit of capitalism. I'm a confused creature. I think there IS such a thing as a social-capitalist? Hmmm. Do i get arrested for saying stuff like socialism / communism? You know what, i'm concerned about the current state of our young. I caught a glimpse of one student's homework , and it went something like, 'spreading negative concepts such as communism and capitalism.' Hmm. Malaysia is a capitalist country isn't it. How true then the correlation. Malaysia = Capitalist = Negative Concepts. I'd surely be arrested if this was seen by the Powers-That-Be.

Like i said before, It's all about the Benjamins....

damn i just noticed the common factor among at least three of my links over there. Guess what it is. I just don't think PPG fits in there...

hey hey you all... it's a lovely Tuesday isn't it. Up, about, and productive for much of the morning. I'm amazed. Certainly has its benefits, to have my mind and body going for longer periods of time. More to ponder on the state of the country, the universe, and our personal existence.

Given that, looks like my tree-planting is postponed... again. sob sob. Does anyone know, what species of tree would be good? Like, it wont be too tall as to break the roof and disrupt the electricity and phone cables? Something bearing fruit would be nice... my very own home-grown organic fruit... though i'd prefer home-grown organic lallang. I'd go on-and-on about its excellent theurapeutic qualities, healing power for mind, body and soul.

Inhale, exhaaaaaayle....

Lovely day it is. For the very fact that i'm still breathing. That i actually got up in the morning. I read about us Asian males having spontaneous bed-time deaths. Scary thought. At least i'd be dreaming at the time. And that the dream goes on and on and on and on. Like 'Vanilla Sky'? Hmmm. So, all us Asian males - don't stress yourself out. Breathe. Enjoy the simple things in life.

Later....

It's eye-gunk time this morning again. No wonder the screen looks blur. Sunday, oh Sunday, how i love thee...... how i look forward to the parteeeee.....

I have this feeling now. Can't really explain it. Might just be some false optimism, the effect of all that sugar from the Coke i've consumed tonight. But.... I feel like everything's going to be all right. It's like, frig, I'm gonna wake up on Sunday noon and find butterflies flitting around in my garden. Rainbows in the sky above. A healthy bank balance. Perhaps I'm at a point where I need dreams to come true.

12.35pm. Am still concerned about Cutebutt. It's not worth it, dudette.

Was up til 6.30am... ouch. Think i was half-asleep in front of the telly while some stupid movie was on. Movies on ASTRO arent as fun as they used to be. Or perhaps i'm just plain fed up of the telly. Idiot box it is.

Gotta get going. soon. Weekend, yeah yeah. Get to laze, yippee. Most excellent pastime, that. Is there such a word as 'allthetime' as opposed to pastime?

DAMMIT i haven't bought my tree yet. And a multitude of other items which i was supposed to this morn. Die lah this time.

Taaaaaa

I bought a book i've been eyeing. So when i came across some moolah, heheh there i went to the Kikokuniya (damn i cannot get the spelling and pronunciation right, i just say Kiko-something-or-other!) and pulled it off the shelf. Liberated it, more like it. It'd be a shame to sit there for years in that amazingly huge bookstore in KLCC, gathering dust for years, til one of my progeny decides to take it home.

My latest acquisition's called The Art and Practice of Astral Projection. Obscure enough for ya? I just love that topic. OBE, astral projection, astral travel. Stuff like this is more real to me than, say, politics or capitalism. I haven't started on this book. It might just join the ranks of my other books, unread to date:

1. The Vampire Armand, Anne Rice .... halfway through, somehow haven't opened it in weeks. Anne Rice is my favourite author to date.... sexy, poetic, substantial. Until crap like Violin, that is.

2. Filth, Irvine Welsh.... halfway through as well. Think i need a dictionary for this English book. Anyone seen the movie Trainspotting? Hahaha! There is a segment there with English subtitles. This is THE movie to watch. Filth, the book... the title says it all.

3. Men are From Mars, Women Are from Venus, John Gray. Stupid arse writes a book telling us what we already know. Makes millions. I'll pay anyone to take this away from me. Woops, Aunt Ju, thanks for giving it to me. I know I've got problems with women. Thank you for hammering it home.

Nuff said for the mo... Happy weekend y'all.

I'M SAD. And i don't like to be sad. Don't do it, Cutebutt. I will listen to you. Just talk to me. OK. I am here.

If you could read my mind, love / What a tale my heart would tell.....

My eyes are stuck together, i can hardly see, it's a morning thang, i'm not used to this.

I'm looking forward to a good day. I'm up at this hour, aren't I? I better have a good day.

Off i go to the big bad city. Put in my share of greenhouse gasses. Methane, carbon oxides, and all that.

And i wish you, my lovely ones, a happy day.

Seems my brains (if i've any left, going by the poisons going into my bod) works only after midnight. Shit, if it worked during the day, i'd be rich. And hardworking. Efficient even. *sigh* What is it with the night?

I had a most lovely evening. With my mates from LP - Viva le LP24! And we practically planned our whole year ahead, with some exciting programmes and trips. I do so enjoy travelling.... Daffodil, did u get bitten by them fish? Envious that you'd be watching those live colourful fish up close and personal.

I remember that time when i saw live saltwater fish in full splendour. Me and my 2 mates - Hari, Surin - were in Langkawi for some duty-free imbibing, but during the day we did manage to put in some sightseeing. Ended up on an round-the-islands boat tour, which is the must-do in Langkawi. Off we went ... and when i jumped off the boat, there they were, in all colours of the rainbow, swimming around my ankles. This image has never left me, til now. That's why i'm pretty fixed on having such a holiday, snorkelling, and perhaps even scuba-diving.... mmmm...

That trip was a very memorable one... the 4WD we rented... getting pissed as soon as we landed... the long journey itself. Seems like yesterday, but it's been many years. Let's DO IT AGAIN! yeah.

My brains, oh where art thou, brains of mine.... where have i left them....

I had marvellous time last night. I knew i was in for it when Christopher called me. Woo hooo!!! It's a good thing to have a party, but... damn the booze is just extreme lah. Too much alcohol promotes decadence and ... whatever. I love club music! The beats just makes me come alive... sexy... and i still don't know the e-bunny joke. Someone in the know please enlighten me. Damn, I haven't seen so many clubs in a night for a long time...

Waking up after such excess is no fun at all, too. adoi. If there weren't so many things on my mind, i'd be asleep lor. Sleep til evening... hey i just heard from my pal browncow... (see comments page) I'll always remember those glorious inebriated moments we shared with the old posse. You all are always a bunch of laughs... now sorely missed, happily married, har har.

Later, alligators.

NO-ONE commments on this blog! Boo Hoo. Yes, cl_tan, 'tis my input here on this blog. Weird??? Hardly, my dear. Nothing weird here, just the waste material of a demented mind.

I just bought a chemical toilet cleaner at the shops nearby. That was driven by the disgusting-looking toilet of mine. Even I have the shivers using it. So, along came the GoodMaid Power Cleaner for toilets. AND it works. (Do i get paid for plugging the brand?) As for the rest of my abode... know of any good contract cleaning companies? Last i looked, there were broken glass, one half-empty beer can, chips wrappers, rotting chillies, etc. AND i haven't gone into the fridge even. UURRGGGHHHH.

Another unproductive day. *sigh* Think i need some head adjustment. No, not the alcoholic variety. Perhaps a trip to the beach. Watch the stars. Breathe in the salty cool night breeze. Haven't done that too long. I want to so bad. But, my purported commercial activities... keep me here in town. What a load of excuses i give myself!

DO NOT WATCH "RESIDENT EVIL". Leave brains at door if you do. The only thing worth viewing is Milla Jovovich. And Michelle Rodriguez. Does anyone have a copy of 'Girlfight'? Daffodil, u got that movie? Highly acclaimed but a rare find even in this pirate-infested marketplace. My self-confessed movie buff pal... Good of you to call, i think my mind was somewhere-lah. You know lah, thinking about work, finances and the such...catch me at night, okay, and we'll share a laugh. Or two. Or three. AND I HATE YOU for that sojourn to the island paradise. Have a superb holiday, is what i'm saying. Share some nice pics as well ok! : )

Back to Resident Evil... horrid horrid horrid. Boring predictable stupid. Only Milla saves the day... eye candy. Methinks the hotblooded males of the world will start salivating and sales of Kleenex will go up 25% with the release of this movie. I think the poor gal is being exploited. If you've seen THE FIFTH ELEMENT you'll know what i mean. The similarities are obvious. She can't act. So... show her bod off. Can't go wrong there. It's Milla you know. Supermodel extraordinaire. So i give the movie half-a-star. For Milla's body part's acting abilities. Or lack of. Or whatever.

Back to capitalist activities now.

I'm royally screwed. Am gonna be toast. AM in the deep end. Time to get my backside off the comfort of this chair, and do battle out there, in the big bad world. Taaaa.... later then.

My day STARTS now. Firstly, am off to the bank... then it's MAKAN-TIME! think i'll have my usual curry, fried chicken, veggies, and rice... great way to start the day.

HAPPY MOVIE FOR THE DAY: Austin Powers, International Man of Mystery!!! HAHAHAHA Never fails to make me roll around the floor. Anytime, everytime. THIS is prime comedy, lah. Everyone should watch this at least once in their lives. Methinks i watch too many movies.

The future's so bright, i gotta wear shades.

That WILL be the case if our poor urban trees get chopped down at this rate.
Hey let's all plant at least ONE tree, somewhere. I'm gonna do my bit this week.
A nice, shady tree in my garden. It will be lovely! Tell more about it as it grows and grows majestically.

I love that episode of 'Friends' with that song, 'Smelly Cat'. Can't remember the inspiration for it but it cracks me up everytime it comes up.
I'm gonna have my own song. 'Smelly Egg'. An ode to an Easter egg.
I find the chicken-and-egg quandary pretty amusing too. Only attempted when inebriated.

Happy day to you all.

it's 1pm. my eyes are still almost stuck together. i really should go get the crap cleaned off me.

I LOVE MY NEW MODEM. so far it hasn't disconnected itself. Great stuff. Two thumbs up.

My guess was right. X-Files comes on 3.30am. Seen this episode. Will go sleep soon. Revel in the sweet surrender which is sleep... Looking forward to an excellent week.

No-one's put any orders yet for the ultra-cool black crystal bracelet. Perhaps i should put a pic of it up.

If eggs could cry, mine would. No-one wants to adopt it. *sigh* What would i do? Keep it to myself... yeah. Don't think it would be edible after all the creativity that has gone into it. Ah well. No need to put forth the chicken and egg question. Tis the egg, for sure, that will go to the bin.

I FEEL SICK. Cos i read the papers on a daily basis. Palestinians and Israelis killing each other, for decades. Fools. Malaysians killing each other. Idiots. Malaysians chewing out the Singaporeans, in a love-hate tango which is gonna go on forever. Americans killing Afghans. Americans taking a swing at their enemy of choice every decade or so. One high-ranking Malaysian Military Official did tell me a theory why the Americans do it. Perhaps someday I'll let it out. If it's not a national secret... huh.

Malaysians fighting over the Spratlys. Is that tug-of-war still going on, where half of South Asia is attempting to gain control of the place? Seems a media blackout here.

Hey it's time we put a fucking end to war. Watching war movies make me sick. WHY WHY WHY???? Damn isn't that what the political process is for, a civilised avenue to amicably settle conflicts without loss of limb and life? Why the fuck is it not working? Is it really necessary to resort to such acts of violence, sometimes on a massive scale as to wipe out entire races??? Why the genocide, why the killings, why the need for an armed force??? Didn't the frigging Cold War end a long time ago??? Does the frigging US always have to identify an ENEMY so as to justify their defence budgets and their weapons industry?

It starts with one. That's YOU and ME. It's not up to the LEADERS to determine peace. It's in me. It's in You. Look around. I see people, with feelings and emotions, with hopes of love and peace. If we were all to share these same qualities to all and sunder, I'd believe we'd start the creation of a beautiful society. I do my part. No doubt it's hard. Let's share our smiles. Let's offer our hearts. Let's dispose of our prejudices, our fears and insecurities, our deeply-ingrained biased Malaysian mindset. Oh call me a stupid dreamer, a hopeless romantic, an idealist. This is possible. Remember that movie "Pay It Forward"? It is that easy, starting from the power of one.

SO what are you gonna do? What am I gonna do, is what i should ponder upon.

On a lighter note... the fact that Paula Malai's getting married is breaking some of us male's hearts. Sob sob.

HEY i met another person who doesn't know of the PPG. Hmmm. Think i'll add a link to enlighten you heathen.

I MADE AN EASTER EGG today. It is a cool little thing, and it's now sitting in my vehicle dashboard, waiting for a lucky recipient. Or perhaps i shall keep it there til the insides turn greenish-black and i might sell it off as a century egg. Hey it isnt often that i get 'creative' and get down to actually achieving something. A bolt of lightning must've struck me last night when i was asleep, and i woke up inspired.

What is a poet's muse? Did anyone see that crappy movie with Sharon Stone in it, 'The Muse'? Didn't think so. Well... i suppose a poet's muse could be anything... a spirit, a plant, an object of beauty and affection... What's YOUR muse of choice?

AM BACK!!! Tis good. Feels complete now. IT's been gloomy, rainy and stormed out lately. Pretty much reflects the national psyche.

TO Nohopestalker: I really feel insecure when u don't post for the day. Are you all right??? Has some catastrophe occured? hope u are ok. Do check the blog out... it's easy, just click on the link over there... Superb piece of verbal diarrheoa.

HEY have you had your HAPPY MOVIE OF THE DAY? Mine for the night was called 'ALL ABOUT THE BENJAMINS'. It's got Ice Cube in it-lah, so do expect lotsa attitude and Cube-an grouch. Hey the original gangsta is selling out to Hollywood lah. No doubt it IS a funny movie, and stands on its own. But...

Compare this movie with Boyz N The Hood... this is a white movie with African-American actors. Wonder whatever happened to the edge, the hardcore anti-establishment sentiments of Boyz, New Jack City, Dead Presidents, and even Set It Off. Whoa that was great movie loh, cute chicks blasting the city away.

I suppose the minority has, in the words of this new movie, caught up with the Benjamins, and whatever social misalignment has been rectified. Hey... deep inside me, i know it too. IT IS ALL ABOUT THE BENJAMINS.

I GOT A PAL. Let's call him 'G'(cos he hits the Spot?) I am amazed - what planet are u from? Not knowing the massively popular PPG. THEY ARE EVERYWHERE... on lunch boxes, water bottles, TV, papers, and their very own MOVIE ... hmmm didnt catch that one, or is it out yet? Wipe that spunk of yer glasses, mate. : )

Suffering an acute case of PPG Withdrawal Syndrome (PWS). Get me a doctor.

PPG is on NOW!!! damn they are sooooo cute..... singing some song now. Today's episode, Mojo Jojo gave them back their Powerpuff Ball, whatever that is. THE DAY IS SAVED, ALL THANKS TO THE POWERPUFF GIRLS. thats what the commentator says... NOW if only they could come save my day. Shit happens in dozens for me. Not twos nor threes. Crap comes upon me in a flood, like i was a magnet for negative karma or something.

AAAhhhh i know why... I havent been wearing my crystal bracelet! I've got this VERY COOL black one. IT ROCKS! (Please leave your name and contact details to purchase, only RM29.90 / USD10.00,exclusive of postage and handling). I better put it on tonight to ward off all negative energy, cleanse my aura, and purify my thoughts too. Hmmm. Get it on, who knows, my luck might change for the better. Win the 4D or something.

Another nightfall encroaches upon the warmth of the day... Us nocturnal creatures shall come out to play. Somehow the night feels so much more full of energy, a quiet restlessness. You know it lah - PARTY TIME!!! No happy hours for a long time to come, they tear a hole in the wallet. Gotta save some more my travels lah. Been wanting to see koalas in the flesh for a long time. I once got a koala tie-pin from a pen-pal.

Taaaa... Later, alligators.

After approximately 20 hours of grappling with my computer, i still don't have Windows XP installed. And it still acts funny no matter which brand of antivirus i've run. Which goes to show, we are under the tyranny of Mr. Gates who would wish us to spend countless hours buying and downloading software, which in its complexity, leaves us perplexed and pissed off.

Then... in response we all switch off our non-functional, time-wasting PCs and actually go out there and meet each other, interact, and share our beauty. Microsoft's takeover of our brains stops here. We revert to our old lovely letter-writing, relative-visiting old selves.

Damn i hate my PC, i'm off to Uncle Don's.