phew. what an evening it was. so my buddy picked me up at 3pm and we went off to a coffeeshop. and we were in one or the other til about 9pm! quite a number of bottles were consumed, you may imagine. ah well we did trash out a lot of issues. stuff like parental problems (err... i think we're wayyyy past the pubescent angst stage :( ), money (lack of it) and what we're gonna do to rectify the situation. hey this is Malaysia, so what do people do when they need extra income? open burger stall lah ; ) you never know... i'll keep you all posted on any future developments.

it was nice having drinks but it also meant my night was trashed! did wanna meet another friend but mind was numbed by 10pm so... next time lah, G-Man.... the moral of the story being, intoxication just gets in the way of getting things done! hee hee. can see myself as one of those older men you see in the kedai kopi sitting and chatting all night long while checking out Wah Lah Toi / National Geographic / ESPN / CNN. errr, no porno channel ah?

off to breakfast i go - more wantan mee, what else lah. have a nice day!

sitting here at my office, slightly blur. looking forward to some beer later, hope it's hot out there so that may be an excuse ; )

at my place i actually look bureaucratic. fax, phone, pc, letters to be mailed, documents and all sorts of papers lying all over, waiting to be handled. calendar. name card holders. filing cabinets. chair. soft toys (??!!). brochures and pamphlets. to-do-lists. bills bills bills (yayyyy for Destiny's Child - are they broken up?). Yellow Pages. Buying Guide. and amidst all these capitalist symbols i stand. or stand out, more like it.

hey it's not too bad lah. i feel a little productive today. on a scale of 1-5, i rate myself a 2.

take care, bunnies and hares.

song playing: Fuel, Metallica, S&M - wonder what was the purpose of this album, with the orchestra and all. a decent version of One, though.

did anyone else on this planet watch Dead Ringers? talk about upset stomachs - this is one wacky kinky movie, man. get the DVD and check out the cool instruments - i think women will find it ultimately repulsive. Five-star 'Bleuurrrggghhh!!!' factor.

my head this morning seems a bit jammed. no words pour out so is it writers' block? perhaps my focus is so much on what i have to do this morning - mainly pay the many bills. all of which come with such warnings as,'should you fail to do so...' grrrrr.... this so-called life. imprisoned by financial institutions, mind-fucked by the capitalist system, and the mindset that accompanies such a belief system.

damn how about the beach, dude... in another incarnation i will be a surfer dude, with jetski and sand perpetually in my pants. BTW frolicking in the sea isn't always such a good idea - sand gets in everywhere. har har!!! wheeeee....

headache beginning to develop, should peak by about 11.30am. the strings on the Metallica songs are beginning to piss me off. hard rock should stay that way, and not incorporate sissy elements lah. can't take it no more. aaah that's better.

take it easy, dudes. good weather for everyone.

song in head: The Struggle Within, Metallica, the 'Black' album
food in stomach: wantan mee, probably. or toasted bread n kaya. mmm.
wearing: cream shirt, dark blue pants, ugly brown shoes, nice yellow n black tie (see it to believe it, as they always say)
wishes for: eternal peace (meet thy maker, hunnybunny)
movies in head: Pulp Fiction, Dead Ringers, Crash ("...sex and car crashes..." goes the tagline on the CD cover.. : ) )
want to do: jump off cliff, alternatively drown in lake, literally to swim with the fishes.
reality: Hard Rock Cafe this weekend, anybody?

peace.
over and out.
au revoir, you all.

e.

it's been such a rough week. i treasure my sleep time cos that's the only time when i stop thinking and worrying and sprouting new grey hair. i can actually feel em coming out during the day, har har! though in times past i would have imbibed and maybe even rolled up a few (woo hoo the bad ole days...), i believe now keeping a clear head is of paramount importance. only thing about a clear head is... it aches so much... adoi....

so i was at Mines Shopping Centre, having had to go there to exchange a pair of pants which were too small (obviously my significant other missed noticing my ample girth ; ) ) and while waiting for my chicken to arrive at Nando's (fast food? blaaahhhh!!!!), i was staring at the water there, which leads out to the lake / mining pond outside. the catfish and the carp, it all looked so serene and for one moment i did wish i could jump in there and sink into oblivion. out of sight and out of mind, away from the noise around me. would it be painful to die, i wondered, and where would my consciousness take me? ever since watching Powder (the movie) i've wondered where my life essence will take me - or will i just dissipate and be part of all living creatures and go back to Mother Nature's sweet welcoming bosom.

aiyah! got work to do lar. gonna go now to pick some food and read the depressing news for the day. see ya all! have fun today ok.