it ain't all that dark and gloomy, yaaaar.

caught this movie called Where's the Party Yaaar... its the kinda silly movie that just grows on you with every viewing. 3rd time round and i'm still rolling off the couch. yup. nice sight.

u know what.. perhaps the best part of going downhill, as in like in a roller-coaster, is that it will go upwards again, right. i'm rollercoaster-phobic, i keep imagining the cars coming off the rails. that sorta shit happens, yaaar...

its amazing the sort of ideas that come up while taking a dump.

i think i'm too existential for my own good.

am i getting too old to be all hippy and shit?

should i be watching movies til dawn, something i've been doing since, like, 9?

is there something important that i should be getting into?

where are those friggin' aliens and when are they gonna manifest for real?

over n out.

hey there my dear readers... (are there any out there? har har)

have you had any of those days when you feel crushed in spirit, downtrodden, and just can't stand up? i'm in one of those phases now. *sigh* you know, i have no problem getting screwed by customers, employers, friends and all that, but this one time is just too much to bear....

i was made to feel like a miserable little nothing. and those of you out there who think i should take it responsibly and move on, i just can't. it's much more fundamental than that, going in deeper and making me actually question who and what i am, what i can and cannot do, who i can be and cannot.

it's not good to step on and take lightly someone's hopes, dreams, ambitions. it's not right to belittle someone's achievements no matter how insignificant they may seem.

you can say i was always on the edge of this thing we call 'our life' and this might push me over so hard i might not want to rejoin the race.

and so, anon, my friends, i leave you with a thought:

at the end of it all, nothing matters.